Michael Edmondson
I was sitting alone in my room at the age of six talking to god. It was one of those “god, If you get me out of this I’ll be really good from now on” conversations. I felt like he wasn’t listening and told him out loud “If you don’t do this for me I won’t believe in you anymore” (I had heard this is what he wanted most from me).
I got the in trouble that day despite my pleas to god. And so, as promised I tried hard not to believe in him. But it wasn’t that I got in trouble that changed me. It was that I was put in a situation where in a child’s terms “the invisible man in the sky” didn’t help me when I truly needed him… and I was forced to ask a question. Did nothing happen because the invisible man felt I deserved the punishment or because the invisible man was not there? I decided at the age of six it was far more likely (being invisible and having no discernible effect on the world) he wasn’t there. Everything I learned thereafter pointed in that direction as well… so it stuck.
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